complication..

felt so complicated
wat exactly i want and feel is not reachable..
i felt part of it..felt wanting it..
but.. should i really own it??
i dont know..
i dont know whether that could really happen also
if u dont realize.. even if i realized..nothing is going to happen
from the analysis of current situation..
i feel bad
and feel a lot more than bad
which i cant even describe the feelings properly coz it is too much and complicated..
i try not to expect anything but i cant help myself from expecting from you
tell me wat i can do.. to make it a preferable situation for me and u